I’m sharing some of my personal insights on what I have learned and processed from decades of observation, spiritual contemplation, research and study, heightened focus, worldly pondering and various hardship. I was lead to such insights through massive experiences, whether by wise choices or blind ignorance. They are personal to me, my own beliefs and, perhaps, just honest opinions.

I have lived on a long path from mountain tops to valleys, from city lights to an island. It feels like my life has leaped over symbolic (and literal) oceans, riding the waves of life. Like a raging river one moment and a gentle pond the next. I have walked, ran, and sometimes crawled to survive the whirlwinds and spiritual challenges.

Sharing my insights from what I have experienced in this life are deep soul reflections as my spirit guides me to my final days. Those days could lead to decades, and, surely, I shall continue to grow in knowledge, in strength, in faith, and in understanding. Certainly that is the way of life ... for me.

Reflecting on the past while focused on the present, moving forward to where the future takes us is choosing life above mere existence. I don’t believe I was given this life to die an empty shell. The feeling of spiritual death cannot be explained by medical terms. It’s not depression, or sadness, it’s more like a flower that came to full bloom, and through time and seasons it wilts away. It’s a suffering that no amount of money can cure, only pacify.  It’s like the very life within must become a survivor or dwell in darkness.

Many of the things I once believed are no more ... many have remained etched into my being ... and many are yet to discover their purpose and meaning.

Though I speak about my family in various writings, I also try to keep deeply personal things to myself. I can say with all my heart that I love my family, and most especially my girls. They were - and are - my most cherished gift in this life, though life not perfect, yet, perfectly blessed by their presence, and the beautiful grandchildren they have gifted me. I am so proud of each and every one of them. They are beautiful souls, kind and motivated, successful and well educated. This grandma couldn’t be more grateful for their blessings.

I write these words that others might relate to them, or perhaps they may encourage others to search their own personal insights because life is a lot of things, but it is not in vain.